Building Your Vision with Joyful Determination

GENE KEY 9 – Fear and Life Keys

 

Gene Key 9 Shadow of Inertia for me wasn’t about being a couch potato – I am a high energy person with too much tendency to, ‘do’. This has been an adult challenge for me since leaving childhood. The inertia had to do with emotional inertia. My heart energy was ‘stuck’. I was not in a state of Trust in Divine flow and timing – so I was trying to, ‘make it happen’ (the vision I have for my ‘second career/act’) even though I was still not being totally honest with myself.

 

I was still trying to fit my ‘pioneering’ Mountaineer of the Gene Key 9 archetype into the known path or ‘box’ of what is currently the conventional way of thinking. It was like I was diverting and distracting myself – filling up my day with the minutia of details – but not making tangible progress up the mountain toward my greater embodied, manifested purpose of my heart.

 

It was like this quote from the Gene Keys Dream Arc toolbox for the Fear Key for Gene Key 9 which is the Tick nature insect:

Right now you are blocked at the core. You wonder how to break out. Deep within, you even fear breaking out. You may not even be aware of this fear, as like me, it hides in a vulnerable place you do not  wish to visit, and there it continues to feed off your vitality.

 

THE CULT OF BUSYNESS

I was just doing busy work to avoid the anxiety I was feeling about facing the vulnerability of bringing a new vision to addressing emotional stagnation and stuckness to society. I was fearing working in groups and having to deal with, ‘drama’. I’ve been at this consciously now for over a decade. It is ironically this emotional stuckness that causes stress in the mind and body as a vicious circle. As the mind creates its fears, its F.E.A.R. perceptions – so it triggers corresponding hormones and neurotransmitters that create the ‘flight, fight, freeze’ response that we hear so much about.(F.E.A.R. is an acronym I created over a decade ago for, ‘Fictitious Evidence Affecting Reality’).

 

The mountaineer’s journey is about learning to trust. To trust Divine timing, Grace, your own intuitive knowing, listening to your body’s feedback. Most importantly, to trust your Higher Heart. It will show you who to trust and who are your correct team mates. Not your mental head when it comes to determining WHAT or WHO to focus on. You can know you are in trust because your body will not be excessively tight, fatigued and less likely to chronically deal with insomnia, insecurity, and worry. When the Higher Heart is engaged, our energy become more fuel efficient. Passionate, creative, and enthusiastic. When our higher heart is engaged, synchronicity brings correct relationships and mutual support. This explains so much for me.

 

It is like this quote also from The Dream Arc for GK 9 – this is the Life Key, which is the step-by-step Beaver:

Build yourself a creative team. Begin with a partnership where the primary energy is devotion to a task greater than the sum of your parts. Out of this mutual devotion, the work will flow, and it will be joyous and effortless. Such a beginning can only build further good fortune….Determination thus requires no extra willpower other than one’s joy of service to a higher goal.

 

How does this relate to the Tick and Beaver

Gene Key 9 has the following aspects:

Siddhi: Invincibility

Gift: Determination

Shadow: Inertia

 

EMOTIONAL RESILIENCE IS A PROCESS

My journey to peeling off the layers from my emotional development Gene Key, known as the EQ between the ages of 14-21 has helped me drastically this year, in a quantum leap of ‘timelessness’. This Gene Key in this position for me is 54.3. It’s Gift is Aspiration and its Siddhi is Ascension (…up the spiritual mountain…a natural alignment for the Mountaineer it would seem). It is remarkable how quickly this is all shifting my behaviors and relationships and synchronicity. As I focused my intention to dive into my natal EQ shadow of my natal Gene Keys profile, I finally realized how my fear of emotional pain and fear of dependence on ‘the group’ or people in general was creating a focus on survival, separation, and lack consciousness.

 

It was interfering with my capacity for Teamwork and Synarchy (Gene Key 44). This was affecting the purity of my Life Purpose and sabotaging my Life’s Work as The Listener, Gene Key 13.4. It also was affecting my leadership capacity as a Guide, Gene Key 7.4. This information is all revealed within my Gene Keys profile. In fact, I am a certified Gene Keys Guide. This emotional stuckness was revealing the shadow of Obscurity in my Gene Key 11.4 Pearl sphere of my prosperity sequence. Just to note, all these ‘.4’ numbers here are indicative of my soul’s planned life path to lead and inspire groups. See the conflict and dilemma here?

 

If a part of me is avoiding group dynamics and leadership roles unconsciously protecting my heart and feelings – how can I DO my Life’s Work skill development…which affects my Purpose of bringing Unity consciousness, Gene Key 2.6, to the forefront. Purpose in the Gene Keys is about our essence, our embodiment – it is our ‘being’, not our doing. And sure enough, during those years of emotional guarding – I was in the shadow of my Purpose which is feeling, ‘not belonging’. It was a seeming dilemma. My mistrust put up energetic barriers, and pulled me into groups that matched my belief of ‘not belonging’, and then that radiated stand-offishness…which kept recreating a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’. See how I was doing it to myself?

 

SHADOW AS ‘MOTOR-VATION’

I had to deal with my shadows and develop the parts of me that were courageous gifts within me, wise and willing to face my fears and compassionately heal. All of our shadows have corresponding gifts. The shadows help us to experience being, ‘human’ and they are fuel, the motivation for our transformation. They are nothing to be ashamed of – we ALL have them, truth be told.

 

On the surface, yes, I was in the ‘Gift’ of the Gene Key 9 of ‘Determination’ as we generally think of this word – but I was focused on the wrong thing. I was focused on the rules of our current burnout system. Instead, what I was being intuitively called to do, which I kept distracting myself from, was to ‘Be Still And Know’ by listening to the Human Design harmonic partner of the GK 9 – which is the GK 52, stillness, restraint and meditation. It is known as the Still Mountain. And as I am sitting on the Still Mountain transmission…now my pioneering mountaineer, GK 9 can determine what is worth focusing on. This kind of determination is done in the energy of JOY, not grit and stress. This is the deeper meaning of the Gift of Determination.

 

The Joy of Spirit is my strength.

 

The same word here is ‘determine’, however it is really telling us ‘to determine’ first – before putting the energy of focus and determination onto what we ‘do’. A conscious Gene Key 9 is determining based upon insights from Still Mountain meditation – which path or step to take next. Step-by-Step as this key is known for. This archetype does not rush up the mountain just to ‘get it done’ when it is operating at the Gift level instead of in fear. The fear was costing me so much time, energy, and money wasting on my part, painfully I might add! It was a part of my learning lesson, so, it was still in ‘Divine Order’. No regrets here!

 

It was the best I could do until I had my insights and transformed my thinking and feelings. After rushing up the mountain on the wrong path once again, I finally came to my senses this year…after tumbling down once again, bumping my head on a rock, metaphorically, to jar myself awake! This last wake call, did the trick! Some of us are just ‘hard headed’.

 

BE STILL AND KNOW

Now, I am not only sitting still intentionally…but it is in the silence much more frequently (Gene Key 24). It is in humility, intentionality to serve Love, and using my energy and frequency tools, along with allowing Divine images to become clear in my mind. Our right-brain is a gift. Imagination. It is a silent space for the Divine to give us a vision and if we are quiet enough, and devoted enough to our purpose with a pure heart – of service to the whole, not just to self – we can expand the vision for our lives in ease, and Grace. It has taken 7 years (most of these years were earlier in Human Design – the Gene Keys has  sped transformation up for me due to the shadow work connection) to come to understand how this Gene Key 9, a stubborn one in the shadow of emotional Inertia for me, has been causing a snowball affect that was supporting the original teenage year’s fears of emotional self-protection.

 

Love ends suffering. And it is only through love, that our determination can become invincible.

 

When I was afraid of rejection and vowed to not allow those in my life to ‘ever hurt me again’ emotionally – I had no idea I was opening a Pandora’s Box of chaos and stress. It was a way to protect my sensitive heart, and it was the best I could come up with with the limited guidance I was getting at home. But here’s the thing – my parents and siblings could not teach me what they did not know themselves. They too, were doing the best that they could.

 

That is why the journey of forgiveness is so powerful and important. It is not for the other person – it is for YOU. You are the one who will stay stuck until you deal with yourself. No one else can free your mind – but you. I’m a Guide, a Mountaineer, to show the way – but you have to do your own climbing. We all do.

 

You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the next step.

– Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

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